Taking time to step out of a routine and put life on paper to weigh its purpose and intentionality and measure its direction is something I do well. I am a processor.

Looking back over 2019, it was a rough year for many reasons. It forced us to decide if we wanted to live in a world where we were part of the problem or part of the solution. To leave the world better than how we found it. 2020 is no different. It has broken me in the best way.

This was what I was musing on when I picked up my guitar. I wasn’t anticipating writing We Can’t Back Down Now. It came to me. I found some chords that seem to give voice to the strain in my soul. I thought of my wife and how much we’ve gone through together. It was clear to me that this song was for her. It was a message of encouragement that while we’ve struggled, we can still enjoy the blessings and see others blessed along the way. These are healing words that came through tear-filled eyes.

 

Lyrics

This season’s been one poetic punch in our face
Our souls bending under the weight
When I see your eyes I know you feel the same

And life is unrelenting
Always feeling attacked
Always a fight to unpack
But you don’t hold the blame

Girl, our ship’s not sinking
We just gotta jettison the weight
All this negative freight
And set our sails

And who am I ? Just another jerk off the street
But I love you complete
And I know we can’t
back down
Back down
We can’t back down now

Please forgive my ignorant place in this mess
All of my fight I relent
At least towards you

But when it comes to all of this weight that we bear
I carry more than my share
To see that you smile

And know that this season will retreat like it came
But until we see through the rain
We can’t back down
We can’t back down
We can’t back down now